Total Recall (2012)

Matthias: Mr. Hauser, What is it you want?
Doug Quaid: I want to help you.
Matthias: That is not the only reason you are here.
Doug Quaid: I want to remember.
Matthias: Why?
Doug Quaid: So I can be myself, be who I was.
Matthias: It is each man's quest to find out who he truly is, but the answer to that lies in the present, not in the past. As it is for all of us.
Doug Quaid: But the past tells us who we've become.
Matthias: The past is a construct of the mind. It blinds us. It fools us into believing it. But the heart wants to live in the present. Look there. You'll find your answer.

[source: http://www.imdb.com/character/ch0321309/quotes]

Thursday, January 29, 2015

Inward Journey

The blog has gone 'private,' quiet, dark to the outside world.  Though I will still be sharing the 'outside' journeys, I am focusing on the 'inward journey' of practicing mindfulness (or awareness).  In addition to daily practice, which Jon Kabat-Zinn says I should just do and not speak about, I read Pema, Kabat-Zinn, and Joseph Goldstein (the latter to better understand the dharma behind MBSR-style mindfulness practices).

The practice is essential for me personally in order to avoid the prison of my own thoughts, but I also see it as informing my teaching.  I'm not certain exactly how I will implement mindfulness in education.  I will consult articles and conferences in mindful education (e.g., The Center for Contemplative Mind in Society), but it is mostly my hope that "the doing will come out of the being" (Kabat-Zinn, "Mindfulness for Beginners").

For my own benefit as I revise my classes, some 'doing' that is coming out of 'being' thus far includes:
  • Policies that reflect what I really value.  My electronics policy will be a reflection of my desire to have everyone in class be present with the material and with each other.
  • Assignments will allow the students to drive the conversations.  In viewing "Breaking Through" and "Beyond Pride" recently, I was reminded of the past 'compassion fatigue' I've felt regarding oppression of the LGBT community.  I realized that perhaps it is time for me to speak about these issues less and rather just allow the emotions they evoke to 'just be.'  Likewise, I can have student assignments (questions and examples generated from the text, theoretical applications, links to material, current events, outside research) contribute to group discussion rather than relying on me as the source of the 'fatiguing' content. 
Beyond what I have mentioned in these two bullet points, I know only that it is time to hone and implement my awareness of mind, body, and heart in higher education to the same degree that I have honed my critical thinking skills (as suggested in Kabat-Zinn's "Mindfulness for Beginner's"). 

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Coincidence? (I think not.) And two more thoughts for my return regarding contributions to the College.

Decided to come in to the office to tidy up a few things and noticed that the last paper backup of the blog was an August 11 entry about attending a session on mindfulness in education.  Given my very recent return to mindfulness for myself, it struck me as no coincidence, but rather as just another 'frying pan upside the head' from the universe moment.  I will be blogging more soon as I research mindfulness in education.  I will attempt to conduct my research in a means consistent with mindfulness (non-striving and without certainty of the end).

Additionally, I returned to see a note from Counseling services regarding a new group for students to address those who feel "tired and worn down," etc.  Sounds like another possible application of mindfulness for me to explore with Angie ZW when I return.

Lastly, I am excited by the idea (though I will try not to cling to it per mindfulness instruction) of integrating mindfulness in future KCELT offerings.  Returning to an awareness of the present moment, B.  :)

Friday, January 23, 2015

I wonder...

If Kirkwood has a faculty committee on sustainability issues that is College-wide.  If not, I'd like to help form one when I return.

Monday, January 19, 2015

Places to visit (and textbook thoughts)

The list of places to visit for reasons related to environmental (solar, sustainability, etc.) reasons has grown to include:


  1. Abundance Ecovillage
  2. Indian Creek Nature Center to discuss the new solar building
  3. Adam Joseph Lewis Center for Environmental Studies, Robert Kahn Residence Hall (where students sign a sustainability pledge including abstaining from bringing a car to campus), and at least one OSCA Co-op (where students receive reduced room/board and business management experience by being involved in their food production) all at Oberlin College.
Additionally, I am pursuing practice in mindfulness that could be applied to both teaching (pedagogy and curriculum) as well as shared with Kirkwood faculty/staff in later professional development.  I have already completed the first, required 8 week course in Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction (MBSR) and am no planning one or more silent retreats, which is the next step in becoming a practitioner.

Lastly, I've been pondering my new textbooks and the goal to make their use more integral to class.  I have decide the text will be the starting point for answering various questions I pose to the class (answering the questions may be done individually or in group writing projects).  For instance, in Social Problems, the new text could be used to answer the question of whether "raising the minimum wage must raise prices" or a related question regarding inequality in wealth or income.  The three theoretical perspectives would also be applied in answering to understand 'who benefits' from mainstream answers to similar questions.  From there, students could investigate different ways of doing that already exist (e.g., Alvarado Street Bakery) as well as historical periods when behaviors were different (e.g., periods when tax rates for the wealthy were much higher).

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Additional facts from the Big Island

I was fortunate enough to stay with Greg, an astronomer at the renown Keck Observatory, while on the Big Island and learned quite a bit about the environmental/cultural concerns regarding the development of the Thirty Meter Telescope (TMT).  While not yet fully funded (more countries are needed to partner), the telescope could be completed as early as 2018 and is projected to be larger than all existing scopes on Mauna Kea.  Mauna Kea is an important ecological site as well as of cultural and spiritual significance.  Kahea: The Hawaiian-Environmental Alliance includes information about Mauna Kea.  While I see the concerns regarding TMT, I also see that Keck Observatory does everything possible (water is packed up, all waste [including liquid waste] is packed down the mountain) to minimize its footprint upon the land.  I further feel that the whole of the Hawaiian Islands should be scrutinized regarding development as sovereignty is sought and the resort communities leave a regrettably greater impact on areas of environmental, social, and cultural significance.

I am deeply concerned by continued efforts to limit new solar installation on the Islands as well.  Energy companies continue to lobby the State to prohibit new solar systems on the grounds that the grid could be "destabilized."  True: We need to update the grid to DC power and create adequate storage.  Doing so would improve stability and create jobs.  That said, it is the desire to avoid paying consumers for the electricity they produce, and not the stability of the grid, that is behind the efforts to prohibit new solar.

Last, but not least, consider the following from pg. 136 of "Big Island Revealed" regarding the 35,000 head of cattle kept on the Island by Parker Ranch:  "After being raised on sweet Hawaiian range grass for 5-6 months, most of the cattle are shipped by 747 to the mainland or by boat to Canada, then fattened in various areas before slaughter.  Ironically, cattle class on a 747 has more leg room than what you had in coach."  Huh...so many levels of wrongness here.  Discuss?!  Peace out, B.

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Zoe was trying to kill me

I thought I bonded with Zoe from the Kohala Center (see previous post), but I think maybe she was trying to eliminate one human from the planet by suggesting I hike the Waipio Valley.

It's beautiful from the top:


And it would be lovely if you made it all the way to the bottom:






But I cannot emphasize enough that the path down is exceptionally arduous (this is misleading as the road literally tilts at about a 45 degree angle):





Though I was (as usual) not carrying the camera, I did see images of the taro fields Zoe promised that looked like this:





Another adventure I would like to have but will ultimately leave to more intrepid students is to WWOOF Hawaii.  I lament that WWOOF- whether worldwide or the in States- appears to be age biased in favor of the young- but I still have to advocate for students giving it a shot if interested.  I joined the Hawaii chapter (link above) but ultimately did not find any vacancies that overlapped with my tenure.  I was disappointed, but yet I was not as I'm not sure I'm ready for the realities of a composting toilet.  Just saying.  A few years ago, I did have a student work on organic farms throughout Europe.  While physically taxing and a bit imperfect at times, I think she had a fabulous adventure working with wine, olives, and meeting new folks.  Peace out.  B.

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

We were there and...

...this is needed.

Reminds me of the biodigesters we saw in Costa Rica on our Eco-service trip with Kirkwood several years ago to accommodate pig waste in rural areas.