No Hazards

On her flight, Melanie met a numerologist from Montreal and was profoundly affected by the experience.  Her name is Madeleine and, when Melanie was so moved by the truth of her reading, she said there are 'no hazards' (French-English translation meaning 'no accidents') in life.  This morning she sent Melanie a meditation by Wayne Dyer.

There is 'no hazard' in the sending of the meditation either.  Since last night, I've been grumpier and unsettled.  I had lost my mantra of listening to the heart and was allowing the mind to intervene by trying to control and plan.  I decided to start listening to the meditation an hour ago.  I was immediately taken by the "I am" portion as reminder of a Tibetan meditation for anxiety.  I was further moved by the insertion of "I am that" where the 'that' represents what you wish to embody.

I've mentioned how much I've enjoyed the book "Being, Having, and Doing Enough" by Wayne Muller and the subsequent discussion with my Shalom Center group.  Apparently Madeleine's assessment of me is that I am plagued by duality (yep), but have the potential to find solace in a more spiritual life.  I think that is true if I remember that my "that" in the "I am" mantra can be exceptionally simple. 

If my "that" is 'heartfelt' (kind, gentle, soulful, letting go) or 'making the next right choice,' or just 'present' I can experience peace rather than unrest.  Peace is in the present; in a life led from the heart and not the mind; and results in making 'the next right choice.'  In a morning where 'a plan' was not forthcoming and the details of life unsettling, I have found precious peace in the present thanks to Madeleine and 'no hazards' in life.

For those who know me well, don't worry.  I'm still plagued by my 'duality' and will most certainly forget at some point during the day to live in the present.  I will then lapse into swearing like a (very gifted) sailor and you will know that the 'old B' is still in me as well.  It will then be time to remind me: "I am that, I am."  :)